Thursday, 7 April 2016

Spoonie Movie Night

In my opinion, there is nothing better than sticking on your favourite movie and losing yourself in it completely, and forgetting about all the things that have been stressing you out.

Getting cosy with a hot drink, with blankets and pillows, (you could get your carer to make you a blanket fort for enhanced film watching experience!) and your comfiest pyjamas, is a real detox for anyone with an illness, whether it be mental or physical, we all need a movie night every now and then.

I personally love fantasy movies, I think it's my favourite genre, it's a nice escape from the typical everyday, and it makes your own problems seem insignificant- hey, it could be worse, you don't have a deranged villain trying to kill you!

My favourite movie of all time, is Peter Pan (2003).

I adore everything about it, the cinematography, the special effects, the soundtrack, the actors, Jason Isaacs... topless. brooding. evil. yes. please and thankyou. also- I do believe in fairies. I do. I DO.
And, just the overall magic of the story, we've all seen the Disney animated version- and I'm in the process of reading the book- but this one is hands down my favourite and go to 'chill out' film.

My second favourite Peter Pan film is Hook (1991).
Basically I can watch anything with Robin Williams in it and feel 100% better. That man was made of pixie dust, I was heartbroken when he died. But thankful that he made so many incredible films that shaped a generation. 
Hook was one of those movies, growing up, that we all watched together as a family, and it makes me feel so nostalgic.
I remember being about the age of the little girl Maggie, and singing along to the lullaby she sings, it's something I want to sing to my children when I'm older.
And saying 'Run Home Jack' and 'Pan the man!' and 'Goodnight Neverland!'

The next is The chronicles of Narnia (2005) 

I'm realising now that these are all fantasy films, hmm... OH WELL.
Narnia is again one of those films we watched together as a family, and seems more magical each time I watch it!
I also would like to read the book series, at some point!

Now, more 'chick flick'-y type films, overall less intense and easier to follow with minimal concentration.

Clueless (1995) Ugh as if! Sorry hahaha

Mean Girls (2004) I remember watching this for the first time with my best friend Lizzie when we were like 9? I barely understood any of it, watching it as an 18 year old makes me laugh how much went over my head!

Bridget Jones' Diary (2001) It's scary how much I relate to Bridget Jones, even though she's a 30 something woman, and I'm barely scraping the title of 'young woman'. But I know all the words, backwards. And I can't wait for the 3rd movie!

And, if you're interested in movies that show characters with an illness/disability:

The Theory of Everything (2014) I went to the cinema to see this movie and laughed and cried and just sat there with my jaw open.

Snow Cake (2006) I only found it because of Alan Rickman, but it's about a woman with autism who loses her daughter, just a brilliant movie.

Now Is Good (2012) One of those movies you just SOB at, but it was incredible!

So there was 10 movies for a spoonie movie night! 
ps. I would have included the Harry Potter movies, but that's sort of a marathon jobly!

I'm think I'm going to watch Peter Pan tonight, just seeing pictures of it makes me want to watch it! hahaha

Deanna x

p.s.s thankyou Emma for the idea! :)

Sunday, 3 April 2016

Back to Blogging!

I can't believe I found my old blog!
And the first post, (I do think there were more but I seem to have deleted them!)
Was FOUR YEARS AGO! And I can tell... because I said things like, fab, and fabbity fab with knobs on! Lord help 14 year old me! 
In the first post, I was talking about how terribly ill I was, and how far behind on coursework I was! Little did I know, that that flu would turn into M.E, and that coursework would be pointless in the long run, when I dropped out of school because of said illness!

It's so weird having a tiny snapshot of my life before all of this started- I have many vlogs (I made YouTube videos!) and pictures from before I got ill, but there's something about a blog, it's so personal and so very 'in the moment'.
I also laughed at the fact that I was having a whinge about how messy my room was... that's one thing that hasn't changed in four years! 

I've been wanting to start writing again since, well ever since I stopped! But as I got more and more ill, it became harder to even think about it, I only even started posting on instagram (specifically spoonie related) in June'15.

So it's taken a while, but I'm here now, and seeing as I've had so long to process everything, I think I should be able to write more coherently about M.E! Then again I could be completely rubbish and not make any sense, I guess that would be fine too! haha.

A little introduction, if you're here from my instagram, then hello! If not, then...

My name is Deanna, I'm 18 years old, I suffer from a chronic illness called Myalgic Encephalomyelitis, M.E or Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, CFS. I also have anxiety.

I LOVE Harry Potter, 
reading in general (when I'm well enough to),
CATS, I have a cat called Luna, and we have 3 other family cats, Lily, Rodney and Citrus. 
I love social media, I love being able to connect with people from the other side of the world!
I love Netflix, and films,
and piano (I can't read music and I'm not very good, but I love it all the same!)

And writing! I like keeping a dream journal and a diary, although my life isn't that exciting!

So, I think that's enough to be getting on with! And my brain is turning to mush because it's 4:16am right now! NEED SLEEP.

Honestly, my goal for this blog is to just get out everything I've wanted to say for the past 4 years about being ill!

I would also love to share my experiences, with other spoonies, spread awareness, and try to help at least one person! 

Deanna x

Tuesday, 11 December 2012


Apparently there are lots of horrible bugs going round and i now have the flu,and a horrible cold. fab. I feel terrible, I can't breathe properly, my throat is killing me, I feel sick and I have a temperature, double fab. I'm very behind on all my course work with health and social, graphics and art, and today I missed a science mock, double fabbity fab with knobs on.
But, after all that, 'jazz' we still have Christmas to look forward to, and then after my two science exams. AH, oh well...

My life in December...

I don't know where I found this picture, but I can't stop looking at it. It's just so lovely. HA, deary me.
I love the way it's very chunky and looks handmade, it'd make a cute notebook cover, I think.

I am *slightly* obsessed with Sammi (Beautycrush) and Rhiannon's (FashionRocksMySocks) vlogmas' videos! Love watching them both, such naturally funny and lovely guru's and it's also great to see what they get up to everyday.

I've been feeling glum lately, because for the most part, I'm ill, but the second major factor was that my room was such a tip, so I took up numerous black sacks and CLEANED, I'm still in the process, but I also wanted a change so I'm moving a few things about.
where my bed was before

where my bed is now

Hmm, that's sort of it so far, got some more socks from Topshop, and yeah, that's about it.

I hope you enjoyed my first proper post on my blog, please let me know:)
Deanna. x